Dear Body

Dear body,

Please stop fucking with me. It has been seven weeks and one day since the D&C. Roughly nine weeks since the baby stopped growing. Day 51 of my cycle. And still no period. I would have had two periods with my usual cycle by now. I’ve finally gotten to the point where this loss wasn’t occupying my every thought. But now you make me remember it every time I go to the bathroom. For the first time in my life, I am begging you for a period. Because I am beginning to lose my faith.